Dan is finally home

E visited Daniel everyday. On Saturday night E and Em visited Daniel. The nurse rolled Daniel to the feeding room for E and Em to see. They rolled Daniel back to the nursery ten minutes later and told Daniel that they are going back. Daniel cried loudly as though he is saying that “Don’t leave me here alone”. E was determined to take Daniel out by the next day. So we managed to contact our confinement lady Irene and finally on Easter Day (27th March 2005), Daniel comes back to his home, where he belongs.

Daniel is so small

When he came home, I had a good look at him. He is so miserably small. Though his birth weight is significantly bigger compared to preterm baby of his age, he look so thin almost like few layers of skin covering his bones. I felt very sad and wish that I would have carry him longer in my womb. Irene assured me that in two week times I will see the difference. He was only 2.2kg when he came home after loosing the water retention.He could not even suck from the bottle when he first came back. Bottle teeth was too big for his tiny mouth. Irene have to feed him using spoon for the first three days.

Seeing Daniel for the first time

At about 10.00am (Thursday), E rolled me in a wheel chair and as a family E, Em and myself see Daniel. For Em and me it was the first time seeing Baby Daniel. He was in the incubator with a tube on his nose for feeding. My heart sank seeing him in that condition and I wish I could carry him for another month or so. I caught Em almost in tears and seeing that I noticed she quickly look away. I knew that Em love her brother very much. I never knew I would have the capacity to love another child (that was always my concerned) until Daniel came along. Thank you Daniel and Em for showing me what is true love.We check out in the afternoon leaving Daniel alone in the hospital. As we were preparing to pay out bill, tears rolled down as I can’t bear the thoughts that Daniel is alone in the hospital without his family. E regretted for agreeing to check out but I assured him that I am OK.